It has been really interesting to experience the fallout of the creation of my new identity on facebook. Most friends thought I was an imposter and sent private messages asking if I was aware someone was cloning my page. Grateful for their concern, I was also amused… in fact the previous version of myself was the imposter. This new upgraded version of myself (Treacy 4.4) is the most authentic self I have ever known. It got me thinking. What was it about me that felt like an imposter?…  pause for thought…  aha!…
It was the persona I had created many years ago in order to fit into the box I was being asked to inhabit. Because at an early age, I learned that in order to be accepted, I had to fit in. Does this sound familiar to anyone? I think I’m not alone here… and don’t get me wrong, the imposter got me exactly where I need to be today and I am truly grateful for all life has served up and taught me.
If the imposter comes from the head, then the authentic version of myself must come from the heart. Neither one is better than the other, for they both have a depth of knowledge and wisdom. It is not a battle between the head and the heart but I must now strive to allow them to collaborate. I think, then bring that thought into my heart before expressing a truth. Isn’t amazing what a seemingly infuriating action from fb can unfurl? I am beginning to like this upgrade! x
“Mine is a patient heart.
Faced with delays and apparent reversals,
I remind myself that my greater good often comes from adversity.
Choosing to honour the tidal nature of life,
I do not push for artificial solutions born of haste and indiscretion.
I allow the universe to unfold with divine timing.
I attune myself to the tempo of my highest good.”
© Julia Cameron (1999) Transitions: Prayers and Declarations for a Changing Life